I can’t sleep. Tonight is not feeling right. Feeling abandon and thoughts not justified. Feeling like a pest to others. I have retreated into the van, alone. It’s just me … and my thoughts.

I get up and take 6 glycine and then within 20 minutes all goes blank.

I wake up early wondering if today I will feel better. While making coffee, the news is maddening, and I get angry. More negative words. Maybe I’ll go for a walk.

All my thoughts are negative at this point. Simply just going to walk. Just wish I could see the sun and the winter hasn’t even started. I have to think of a way to switch my thoughts positive. Any hints?