Yesterday? Rough. Last night? Let’s just say I’m ready to leave it in the past. But hey, not all bad news, I did manage to squeeze in a hike and make some progress on my new blog app. Yep, I’m officially a hiking, blogging, web-coding machine these days. More updates on that soon. Sleeping, though, is a different story. My ribs are sore as heck, and last night, trying to get up off the floor, I’m pretty sure I heard one of them crack. Good times, right?
Today, though, is game day, and I’m banking on the Griz to show Arizona what’s what. Sorry, Mom and Dad, but I’m hoping for a nice, hearty slaughter.
Honestly, I can’t wait to get my life moving again, getting a job, a routine, some stability. All this limbo, unemployment, counting pennies, it’s a drain. But I’ve decided I’m going to enjoy myself today, money or no money, even if it’s the last fun I have for a while. I’ve got 23 days left before the cash fully runs out and “homeless” goes from looming threat to actual reality. So today, I’m just gonna breathe and let myself have fun. No guilt. I know, I know, I’ve been keeping it light all summer, but this past month has been especially rough. If it had all been like this, I’d probably be back East by now, crashing on someone’s couch. (Don’t worry, Paul, I won’t come knocking for cash or a place to stay. Yet!)
There’s work to be done, and I’m ready to do it. But today, it’s about guilt-free fun. I even went hiking last night, after dark, yes, and sure, I felt guilty being out there when I hadn’t finished everything I wanted to. But I went. Which reminds me, if I want to get in some biking before the game, I better head out soon.
This recovery isn’t just about surviving the tough stuff. It’s about learning to make myself feel okay, then eventually good. Today, I’m choosing to feel good. So enjoy your day, I know I’m gonna try.
Boneshakerbike 
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