Year: 2012

  • Fitz-Barn Day 3

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    I woke up late which at first disturbed me a little. Sure I was not doing as well as I thought I could. But I still had a bit of fight left in me. I still wanted to try and make up for the slow start. Waking up late isn’t a good way to get things started but in hind sight it was good to get a full 8 hours sleep. It didnt take me long to pack up and I was on my way in no time.  It felt good to be riding again and when the route turned into a climb I was excited to learn that I had all my super powers back.  First though I needed to take off my slumber clothes. I stopped at a good vantage point above the Big Hole Valley to make a coffee and strip the warm down clothes off.

    Big Hole Valley

    Photo courtesy of Aaron Baldwin

    I noticed a carcass in the field below me and my mind started to wonder off on a new perspective. How little we are in the world.  How are life is here and gone and how we just get left behind.  It was all this animal could do to stay with the herd until one day it just fell over and moved on.  And the herd just moved on as well.  I felt the same sadness. how I was running with the pack and then left for dead.  No, I wasn’t really left for dead but everyone was moving at their own pace and I had to get myself to the finish or just be forgotten out here. 

    Suddenly three white dogs appeared. All three looking into the valley as I was. The eldest sat on the ridge above me. The middle aged one on the road I was one. And the young one near the carcass below.  The young one noticed me first but not until I spoke up.  I don’t know what I said. Something like, “Whats wrong” or something stupid. talking to dogs is dumb right?

    It started barking and they all approached me. I got nervous for a second but notice the eldest was already wagging it’s tail and they all came and sat in front of me.  It was weird. They all watched me pack my warm close and prepare to ride.  It was if they were there in support.  Waiting for me.

    I started riding and they ran with me.  At first all three until the older dogs fell behind. It seemed like I was getting strength from them and I started riding stronger and stronger. It was like I had not ridden in a week. When the last one left me I was traveling at a higher velocity then ever and started to cover ground quickly.  Then on another section big Clydesdale like horses ran with me and I rode even faster.  By the time I caught up to Tracey P I was simply flying.  I chatted for a bit and then continued my inspired ride.

    Climbing into the Bitterroot

    Photo courtesy of Aaron Baldwin

    The rest was a blur of focused riding and wonderment of the vastness of the Bitterroots. After a beautiful and relaxing water / filter stop I was hammering up a long sistained climb towards Shultz Saddle, the last real sustained climb of the ride.  Easy peasy.

    Last big decent into Sleeping Child

    Photo courtesy of Aaron Baldwin

    Before I knew it I was headed down familiar ground, down to Sleeping Child Road.  I was home and I couldn’t wait to see everyone and finish the ride that started out with disaster and ended up on a strong day. I cant tell why I rode so well that last 100 miles, probably the fasted 100 miles I have ever rode.  Inspiration from other creatures … maybe.  A welcoming hug from my girlfriend, most definitely.  Maybe I was just back to my old self … just out for a ride.

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  • Fitz-Barn Day 2

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    Off Bannock Pass - Photo by Tracey P

    Photo courtesy of Tracey Petervary

    I could not sleep. My headache was better and overall I felt like I was finally over the funk. It was pretty early when I got up and quietly left my two camp mates near the top of Bannock Pass. My headlamp lighted the way and I thought I would head right down into the Lima Valley. But I soon discovered that I had some more climbing to do and took off some of my slumber clothes along the way.

    The horizon was starting to become lighter when I eventually descended. It was pretty cold but that didn’t affect me. My plan for sleeping was to use a bivy and wear puffy clothes of mostly down. Then in the morning when things were nippy I could peel off the layers as necessary and stuff them in the rear seat bag. This system seemed to be working marvelously. Until I ran into a deep creek crossing.

    Sun starts shining in the Lima Valley - photo by Aaron Baldwin

    Photo courtesy of Aaron Baldwin

    Once on the other side of the creek I quickly realized it was a mistake to get my feet wet. My toes started burning soon after as they froze. It wasn’t until I finally reached some sun patches on a hill side that I was able to thaw out. but this pain kept me company and kept my mind off of my condition.

    My condition was good but I was hungary. So I stopped a couple times to snack on the only thing I had, coconut manna. I quickly grew sick of it and started to worry about how the hell I could make it to Jackson without eating. I stopped and accessed every hour … that and enjoyed some rest breaks in the sun. I almost started to have fun.

    Photo by Aaron baldwin

    Photo courtesy of Aaron Baldwin

    The morning ride was mostly downhill and it felt good to scream along at high speeds. To me this was free ground. I was getting closer to my destination with minimal effort. And much needed calories. When I went through Grants my heart sank. There was no place to grab food. Nothing was open and the only bar looking building was closed. About 3 miles out of Grants a man flagged me down in the road.

    “Are you with that woman with the green outfit”

    “Yes I am”

    “Do you want to stop for water and a cookie”

    This sounded so good and I looked back on the road. And this is where my decision making skills need work. Just like the decision to not get food in Dubois this one had a reason. My reason … I didn’t want to back track. IT would of been 6 miles out of my way. Forgetting, of course, that the route was a full 400 miles and who knows how many miles to Jackson. My mind imagined a small climb and all downhill route to Jackson hot Springs where the largest burger in the world (all a part o my delusion) awaited me.

    “Naw … I am ok”

    “Which way are you going?”

    “That way … I plan on eating all the ice cream Jackson has to offer”

    “Over Bloody Dick Pass”

    “Yes, it is the way we are supposed to go”

    “But the is the L O N G way”

    “I know”, as I dropped my head, then raised it towards where I needed to go.

    “Ok, well the general store in Jackson has hand packed ice cream so good luck”

    “Thanks”

    And I was off. And I felt pretty good … for about an hour.

    It became apparent that I had farther to Jackson then I ever imagined. Even with all the data printed out in my bag and a GPS that said how far to Jackson. The going got slow. Suddenly a familiar feeling came over me. Dizziness. I stopped to filter water and berated myself about skipping the water and cookie offer. I rested for about 30 minutes and tried some more coconut mana. The damn stuff wasn’t going down so well. It was gross and my taste-buds rejected it. I just couldn’t eat the damn stuff.

    I rode for another hour and realized I had left my water stop without water. I jumped off my bike near a stream and started filtering. That is when Tracey P came by and decided it was a good idea to take a dip. It looked good but I was concerned about making my chamois wet. I watched her ride off while I slowly filtered water. My boda filter took 10 to 20 minutes to filter enough water to continue. but I figured it was a good rest and it would be good to use my hands in a different way then to hold onto a bike handlebar for hours on end.

    Once back on the bike I climbed the Bloody Dick Pass, not kidding you, it is really called that. I caught up to Tracey but never pulled up next to her. i just needed company. I was really hungary and even though I wasn’t sick any more the lack of nutrition really made me feel weak. I imagined the downhill to Jackson long and fun. We could ride in and have a burger together I fantasized. Then I would feel great. Just before we topped out on the pass, or at least what i thought was the top, I pulled over to urinate.

    It was maroon color. Not the dark brown that I am used to but … red. Blood! I was urinating blood. I freaked out and sat down. Tracey was out of yelling reach and my phone was not working. My plan was to wait for Aaron and have him call for help down in the valley. And I waited. And waited. I grew so freaking scared that I decided that I had to continue. I just couldn’t think about it any more. Blood for god sake.

    I found out that it was not all downhill and coasting was not a option. It was rolling and the road grew ever so increasingly rough until I started walking my bike and shouting obscenities at everything that moved. I didn’t want to put any effort into travel but I had to. I felt stranded and who knows when the next rider would come along. That stretch between when I saw Tracey last and Jackson was the longest I have ever pedaled.

    Photo by Tracey P

    Photo courtesy of Tracey Petervary

    The first thing I downed was ice cream. I sat outside the general store thinking all elements of the world that I was still alive. But for how long. I was peeing blood and the last mile I had to promise a troll that if he gav me a ride into town I would give him my second born child. Of course I was lying but I think he knew that and loaded me onto his little wooden cart anyway. As soon as Jackson came into view it all vanished into thin air and I was left alone to walk my bike into town.

    I called Mo to request extraction.

    “How are you, are you OK?”

    “No … it’s horrible … and I have a secret problem”

    “What do you want to do?”

    I glanced across the street and spotted Tracey’s bike leaning against the hot springs lodge. y spirits lifted and I forgot about my problems. Maybe it was the ice cream talking.

    “Um, I am going to eat in the lodge and call you back to let you know”

    “Ok”

    I found Tracey in the back of the bar defending her position over a grilled cheese and fries. It was obvious she was about to leave as she was wrapping what it seemed to be some more grilled cheeses. And I learned that wrapping fries was a trick. And i followed suite by ordering, no kidding, One half pund buffalo bacon cheese burger, a order of sweet potato fries, a order of seasoned fries, and two BLT’s, I ate the burger and wrapped everything else. I think this “get food to go” lesson I learned from watching Tracey and Jay is in-valuable in these types of adventures. I left feeling a lot better and called Mo.

    “I am going to go up the road and bivy out. i feel better. Let’s see how I feel in the morning”

    Sunset just out of Jackson

    Photo courtesy of Aaron Baldwin

    And I was off.

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  • Fitz-Barn Day 1

    Wild Fire 

    I awoke today with a pounding headache around 3 am. When I moved I would puke.  Vertigo at it’s worse. I desperately tried to figure it all out but it hurt to think.  Could it be the wildfire smoke in the air. Last night I had the beginnings of a headache and I did get a bit of car sickness.  But even if I figured it out the fact still remained that I was sick.

    I did my best to march towards the start line. My plan was to down a ton of excedrin and then when it kicked in I would start the ride.  Even if it meant missing the start, I had the route on my GPS.  I didn’t care. I hurt. Bad.

    Photo Courtesy of Scott Fitzgerald

    Photo courtesy of Scott Fitzgerald

    Thankfully for me the Spots didn’t arrive on time and by the time they did the excedrin was working.  I quickly put my bike together and strapped things down.  We were off and I pushed to the front.  I knew when the excedrin wore off I would have to bivy out until I got better.  Or down a bunch more excedrin … if I was lucky enough to find a store on route with drugs.

    At Saint Anthony I was feeling the effects of excedrine and worst of all it was wearing off. Funny thing though, my mind didnt register with a returning headache and the need to buy more excrdrine.  I was worried about my stomach.  I got water at the first gas station I encountered and notice a wobble in my step.  My stomach was trashed by the drug cocktail and I just felt depleted.  I tried to eat a little coconut mana.

    Moments later I was pulled over wishing I didnt eat something.  I was headed into the desert and reportedly some sand dune crossings. I assessed my water as adequate, got back on my bike, and trudged forward.

    Sand Dunes

    Photo courtesy of Tracey Petervary

    The first half of the desert wasn’t bad.  I felt I was riding pretty good and was amazed at how easy it was to traverse the desert so quickly.  And it was remote too. Really freaking remote.  I mean sometimes the weathered double track disappeared and I had to rely on the GPS.  About 1/3 of the way through the hot dry land I started noticing some disturbing elements.

    No trees and no shade.  I felt I needed to stop every hour to get out of the sun for just a bit.  When I did I felt better and kept a pretty good pace.  But after one stop the trees were gone. no shade. Nothing but rock.  And sand, sometimes deep enough to force a dismount and bike push.

    By the time I emerged on the other side of the desert I was delirious.  Just beofre gaining the road into Debois I sat under a bush next to a gate.  It felt good and I slurped the last remaining water from my bottle.  After 5 minutes I decided I must continue on.  The desert was over and I couldnt wait to get to Debois … and Ice Cream.  I couldnt wait.

    I stood but fainted back to the gound.  I couldn’t stand up and was so dizzy. I couldnt eat because I would hurl.  I laid on the ground for about 40 minutes.  After a while I could stand but felt horrable.  I slowly made it to Debois and passed out leaning up against  grocery store wall.  My plan was to get ice cream and water.  But I couldn’t stand up. I went in and out of consciousness.  I felt so completely beaten.  Here I was sleeping mid day and about to abandon the race.  I looked around for my phone.  

    Photo by Aaron Baldwin

    Photo courtesy of Aaron Baldwin

    I decided to call Mo to have her drive to Debois when Jay P came pedaling up the road, pulling into a resturant across the street. He spotted me and waved so joyfully I just had to energetically raise my hand to eagerly greet him back.  And behind him was another rider … then Tracey.  I climbed up my bike wavering before I walked across the street. I sat down next to them in the cafe and reported that I was trashed. Then I proceeded to order a burger and fries. It is what they were doing.

    Riding from Debois by Aaron Baldwin

    Photo courtesy of Aaron Baldwin

    The burger came up and before that I didnt find the energy to get excited enought to buy ice cream or anything at the grocery store. In fact when Aaron asked me if I wanted to buy any food I just waved my hand while trying to not barf.  I couldnt stand the sound of any food items.  And the burger I just ate was the hardest thing I ever ate.  And …. well, that didnt stay with me long.

    Riding into the sunset

    Photo courtesy of Aaron Baldw
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    Aaron gracously lead me up to what we thought was Bannock Pass. Instead of calling Mo to abandon I thought maybe if I could make it to Jackson where we could meet up and stay for a couple nights to recover. I fell asleep in my bivy wondering how I got so far since Debois.  So many times almost passing out as Aaron peddaled out in front of me. Keeping an eye on me as I faded.  When the small band comprised of Tracey, Aaron, and I stopped amongst sage brush on top of “something” and declaired that we were stopping I gladly collapsed in my bag and drifted off to sleep. Or maybe I passed out. I cant remember. The last thing I saw were the ememse stars.

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  • Denial

    Emerald lake Meadow

    In my mind is a meadow encompassed by towering cliffs. Inside this crown of rock is a Emerald Lake. My eyes start to regain focus from the dream and re-gain reality. We are coming into Salmon and the air is thick with smoke. We are on our way to the Fitz-Barn. It feels like I am coming down with the flu. Could it be the smoke in the air from the wild fires? Should I have not played with my new GPS while in the back seat … giving me motion sickness? I must put this all out of my mind because I embark on a 400 mile journey tomorrow morning. I drift back to my rock cirque.

  • Distracted

    Mo riding Emerald Lake

    It is hard to focus on a upcoming effort or journey with so much going in in societal life. Losing a position at work and being moved is far more distracting then I want it to be. I should b packing my bike for the Fitz-Barn. Or maybe just go out and hit some single track and hope that the woods will guide me. I think I will do that.

  • Casted out of Truman

    Sometimes work parallels life. Today if that is so then I was abducted. I was just moseying along a trail walking into the sunset on Truman Gulch and some dude came walking up the trail. I could tell he was out of shape by the way he was huffing and puffing. But no bother, right? Everyone is welcome to enjoy the trails. I moved to the side to let him by. He then grabbed me and said he was the new “CLO”.

    “What is a CIO?”, I asked.

    “Chief Land Officer. Are you making light of my powers, calling my status CIO? I will show you; you tiny ant. I am moving you to a new valley. From now on you will hike Sypes Canyon. Now get out of here and leave me to my land.”

  • Back to reality

    Are Mondays really necessary. I mean of all the days I have endured in my lifetime it is Monday that seems to give me the most trouble.

    Pros:

    1. Rest?
    2. Sorry folks I have nothing here.

    Cons:

    1. People disappear back to work.
    2. You must hang out with people you pretend to like (work).
    3. Your tired.
    4. Your no longer out enjoying the world.
    5. I guess what I am saying that it is a hard adjustment … mentally

    In any case … I want out of the study.

  • Trails are trails

    Tails as trails? Slip of the tongue, but let’s dive in. Starting a post can be tricky, and no, trails definitely aren’t tails. Next weekend’s plan? Mostly road and double track, far from the rugged single-track I’m tackling now. Unlike Missoula’s smooth trails, Bozeman’s are a wild ride—more hike-a-bike than smooth sailing. So, trails vary greatly, each leaving a distinct impression. This one’s memory? A painful “OUCH!”

  • Forgetting

    Forgetting

    My first backpacking ride … or race … or effort. Whatever. Anyway, it is next weekend. My mind still has not come up with a label. But things without labels shouldn’t stop me from preparing. This weekend I am waking up early. Not to quantify next week’s effort. No. But to prepare the body. So I load up my bike and head to the hills. I will spend the day trying to GPS some more trail that I have not done before. But the sun will set and I will have forgotten about next week. I will have forgotten about the Bozeman Vision Quest I am dreaming up. All I will know is that this trail … in new to me.

  • Bangtail anyone?

    I have a few moments while I await a expected visitor from Missoula. Reason for the visit is that I am carless … water pump … again.  So with that going on I am wondering what this “visitor” and I will be getting ourselves into this weekend. Maybe a mountain bike ride on the Bangtail Trail.

  • Fitz-Barn Planning

    Fitz-Barn Route

    384 Miles
    33,000 Feet Climbing

    Google Map :: http://goo.gl/maps/5ZIjq

    Garmin Route :: http://connect.garmin.com/activity/213417425

     
  • Shock

    Shock

    The sun’s rise over the Bridger Range was, once again, a sight to behold. The wildfire smoke added a dramatic flair, just like yesterday as I drove to work. While I’m not fond of the smoke, it’s been particularly distracting lately.

    Upon arriving at work, I learned I need to move my desk by the end of the week. As if losing my position wasn’t challenging enough, now I’m faced with the added task of relocating within the office. It seems like just another obstacle on this journey. But like all things, this too shall pass in time.

  • Going home

    Going home

    The wildfires make it possible for a simple sunrise, although exciting in of itself, more dramatic. Driving home this morning was sort of surreal. So I tempted to grab my camera and while on the fly take some shots.  The result … is blury. But you get the jest. So it is another week of more then exciting work. I havent planned this weekend but would like to watch Sammy in the Olympics.

  • Constant

    Constant

    Spending time with Mo in Missoula I have come to the realization that no matter where we are there is going to be some dirt bike frolicking.  Followed by some sort of adult beverage and a pizza or burger. Life cant get any better … right?

  • Off the beaten path

    Off the beaten path

    Another drive to Missoula last night…o/o Varoom! Thinking back to a bike ride that I did in the Pipestone area. We went off the trail and along a beach.  I was wishing I had my fatty.  At the end of Lake Delmo, we adventured even further but eventually decided to go back to the beaten path.  It was fun though. Sometimes it is what you gotta do.  All this traveling to Missoula, on a beaten path, is starting to wear on me. But I would do it all over again.

     

  • A tale of two rides

    A tale of two rides

    Wednesday nights at the Round House Sports Center people gather to be portaged to a local destination for mountain bike goodness.

    Even though I should be resting after the Butte 100 I decided to ride down and partake in the Wednesday night ride. Even though I re-rode some of the Butte 100 course the day after the race. Even though when I rode over my legs felt weak.

    We did the Olsen Creek to Grassy Mountain Loop. I quickly discovered a similarity to the Missoula Thursday Night Rides in that we stopped often to chat and there was opportunity to go slow and enjoy the ride. Then on the most wicked decent in Bozeman we opened up for some Disney like roller coaster downhill. On the way back to the parked vehicle I discovered my mistake. My legs … lead.  Oh well, I will rest the next day. Right?

    Wrong! Even though I know Ray’s Three Sandwich Rides to be total adventure, all night, death rides I went back to the Round House Shop to board the Mule Bus destination South Cottonwood.

    The description of our ride, er adventure, from Erik went something like, “We go up to the second creek crossing and then hike our bikes up about 700 feet to a traverse that leads to the trail up the ridge then we follow the ridge. Oh yea, there might be no trail I don’t know. But …”.

    I knew there was going to be trouble and the fact that I didn’t bring my headlamp prompted me to suggest I would leave the group and ride back home at 8 … ish. The climb was more like 2,000 vertical feet and I finally hit my limit of what energy I had left after last weekend. Two times I had vertigo episodes, one time almost veering off a cliff. Suddenly on the ridge I heard a familiar sound. The sound of derailleur being snapped off. It was Dave’s new bike.  Total bummer. But for me a chance. A out.

    I rode down the Hyalite creek side and back home with him.  Bad for him, good for me. A way to graciously bail on the ride. I wonder if I can stay off the bike today?

  • The 2012 Butte 100

    The 2012 Butte 100

    As a special treat this blog post will include ACTUAL photos of the Butte 100. And to pull this off I decided, not a good decision really, to ride the course again the next day. I stopped a few times and asked a ninja rider if I could get a photo of her riding the course. So these images should “look” authentic.

    The plan was to go real easy and combined with my new thermogenesis training I expected to light it up in the waning moments of the race to pick off stragglers. What happened? Well the opposite really … well mostly. I did go easy as planned. In fact I stopped half way for a pint of vanilla ice cream, although slightly “soft”. And I did light it up near mile 60.  Then I died.

    The course was fantastic. The first 50 included some great trails in the Pipestone area. It was the best first half course ever … kudos to the organizers.  At the 50 mile mark my plan was working. I felt superb. I had ice cream and was ready to rock and roll, or to light it up as I said earlier. 

    The second half was the usual steep climbing death fest. When I tried to rock and roll I got fried, probably due to a extra long leg without water and the lack of nutrition. My new thermogenesis training has left me with 0 hunger urges.  This is bad.  You can not do the Butte 100 without eating. I tried to do the entire thing on a single ice cream feed and three bites of sweet potato.  And it was me, the endurance racer, being picked of at the end of the race. I finally did break out the Carbo Rocket, which I should of done starting at mile 50. The result was a grreat little surge that helped me enjoy the last 20 miles. Mile 70 to 80 … a meltdown I want to forget. But overall I did feel great which was my goal. To go slow and enjoy … for once.  The result 9th place.

  • Mountain Musings: Lost in the Data, Found in the Feels

    Created Later With Gemini

    So, buckle up, folks, because tomorrow we’re back to your regularly scheduled programming of bike races and epic adventures. Spoiler alert: snagged 9th at the Butte 100, but that’s a story for another day. Right now, I’m knee-deep in revision 2.0 of my “Optimal Number Theory,” which started in a rather unorthodox way. Picture this: a full-blown bike sulking session, followed by a retreat home feeling utterly wiped. You know that desperate energy when sleep won’t come? Yeah, that. So, voila, a blog post was born. Maybe writing my thoughts out will lull me to dreamland (fingers crossed, because if it does, you get this upon my glorious awakening!).

    Let’s rewind to Revision 1.0, shall we? We find ourselves in the land of “lost days,” yesterday being Exhibit A. Or is it today? Wait, did I stay up all night? Time is a funny thing when you’re sleep-deprived. The key takeaway then was that two was the optimal number, better than one or a whole group. But like any good theory, it needed more research. Fast forward a year, and here I am, armed with new data – and you guessed it, mountains are back in the picture! Because hey, spending time amongst giants tends to teach you life lessons, whether you like it or not. Deep, I know.

    But hold on, let’s not revise that main point just yet. There’s a new wrinkle: other entities might influence the optimal number. Unless you’re solo, that is. Then you’re like a lone wolf, unaffected by the pack. That’s where my focus has shifted.

    Remember that “two peaks are better than one” thing? Still stands. Sometimes, you need to conquer that solo summit to truly appreciate its beauty. Just like in life, you gotta have your own space to grow, shine, and face your demons. But here’s the kicker: are we defined by the mountain range we belong to, or what we bring to it?

    Confession time: I’ve been guilty of wanting to be the star peak, but lately, being part of the range has yielded some interesting data. Turns out, sometimes you gotta step back and let others bask in the spotlight. Unexpected, right? And who knows, maybe the other mountains will evolve and shake up the theory entirely. Maybe optimal numbers are fluid, not fixed. Maybe I’ll crumble into a scenic alpine lake – hey, it’s up to my fellow peaks, you know? That’s the real discovery here.

    So, does that mean solo is the holy grail? Can we truly be ourselves with others dictating our existence? Do we even need to stand out? The truth is, while we might be better together, forming a stronger “range” than a lone mountain, this “togetherness” requires active participation from everyone. If one peak decides to go rogue and chase its own glory, the rest get left behind, frustrated, and the range fractures, leaving a lonely valley in its wake.

    But wait, what about the joy of sharing our journey with others? That’s still a thing, right? Now, here’s the wormhole: can a mountain range truly exist with just one mountain? Nah. More mountains add beauty, but too many can dilute their individual awesomeness. It’s a balancing act, folks.

    But hey, that’s all up for debate! This Revision 2.0 just adds another layer with fresh data from a year of research. So, where do I go from here? Is it better to be a lone wolf or part of the pack? Stay tuned, data fiends, because more adventures (and mountains) await!