Month: September 2003

Ok, now I am really really pissed off and very depressed. I came home from work to go riding, get groceries, do my finances, and finally play a little NHL 2004 or watch a movie. Guess what I did? Fudging nothing! Just sat here at my computer screwing around with this website. Arrrgh! I am such a loser.

Chillin’ at work with Coldplay tunes in my ears, “God Put a Smile on Your Face” is setting the vibe.

Man, running this morning was like jogging through the heart of darkness, even darker than yesterday. Yep, fall’s knocking on our doors, folks.

Got a trip to Glens Falls this weekend – psyched to catch my first eyeful of those autumn colors.

And jeez, today’s run was freezing! Went full Eskimo mode with hat and gloves. Total brrr moment.

Got a staff meeting at 9. Talk about snooze fest central. It’s the weekly drudge.

Movie night’s on the radar, but it’s all up in the air. Depends on Lisa. If she’s in, I’m in. My roomie’s buried in school stuff, and I’m not tight with the others. Plus, with the construction circus in my street adding a solid hour to my commute, I’m not exactly jumping for joy.

Feeling pretty fed up, got this itch to just pack up and leave. But hey, ranting’s one thing, rushing off’s another.

Seems like my pals Paul and Lucy are bailing on our annual CT rendezvous, and it’s hitting me hard. They’re my only visitors in this neck of the woods. Guess it’s time to look for new horizons.

Feeling like a square peg in CT. These folks just aren’t my tribe. Time to scout for a new gig and a place where I blend in. Ugh, job hunting – my favorite… not.

It is only 7:47 and it feels like 10. I am already feeling the pressure of time and the week has just begun. Things are already getting onmy nerves like my roomate. He put a coke in the freezer and it exploded on me this morning. Then he left for work and set the house alarm on so Ill have to dash to the terminal before the alarm goes offf. JERK. The morning run is dark and cold. It is like starting all over again. I dont feel as strong as I did last week. I must have peeked and now after recouvering from near overtraining it feels like I am out of shape. I know this will pass too. Well I dont have time to get into any daily thoughts as I must run off to the stupid job accross the river.

Todays Mood ==> ANGRY

Today it rained. It rained a lot. I did my usual. I went to Starbucks to get a scone and coffee. After I wondered around looking for a photo opportunity I finally settled on a shot in Milford. Then I went to the mall. I had some breakfast and shopped until I found the new NHL 2004 game that i always get. I thought to myself, what a perfect day to play games. So that is what i did. Now my hand is cramped and I lost every game so far. Oh well, it is fun. the game is definitely an upgrade from last year. Some of the visuals are absolutely stunning. In other news I implemented a chat room so that when some people meet here on my site we can all chat without using the chat box which doesn’t refresh and can get bogged down.

It is not one of my best photography days. I went down to West Haven Beach to watch the sunrise. I waited and waited and the sun never came up. It was too overcast and foggy for the sun this morning. I took a couple shots but none too spectacular. The best one is a panoramic shot. One photo I kept purely because it used contrast very well and the picture stirred some knind of emotion in me. I have not yet figured it out yet.

Wednesday night, I couldn’t resist loving this new picture of Melinda and her car (will not post here). My ex, Ronda, sent it my way, and I knew the family would get a kick out of it. Check it out if you haven’t already!

Sunrise paints the sky this morning, and I sip my smoothie, feeling optimistic. Town meeting got pushed to tomorrow, so here I am at home, playfully contemplating a “sick day.” Just kidding, of course!

But work threw a curveball yesterday. Apparently, everyone gets promoted after a year, which is company policy. I’ve been here two and a half! Guess my choices haven’t aligned with expectations. I don’t do the overtime my boss loves, summer vacations are frowned upon, and taking sick days…well, you get the picture. Even participating in their “voluntary” charity drive factors in. Strange, right?

Anyway, venting over. Last night’s mountain bike ride was rough, despite just being happy to get out. I felt awful, climbing like a snail (not that there’s anything wrong with snails!). Darkness caught me, and I had to take the roads back. Night riding isn’t far off, though!

Here’s a thought: We can’t erase memories, but we can heal from them, especially anger. Anyone want to share their experiences?

Speaking of change, I’m tinkering with a new fall theme for the blog. Check it out under “Select Themes” on the bottom left. It’s called “dvx v1.0,” featuring my morning running spot, Maltby Lakes, all decked out in autumn colors with a hint of Halloween.

Did you know we have different themes? Each user can choose from 12! Feeling nostalgic for a past theme? Go ahead and set it back. Though, with me, themes tend to change like the wind…wacky, right?

This post might be a mixed bag, but that’s life, I guess. Family, work, health, hobbies, and even a little tech thrown in – it’s all part of the journey. Thanks for joining me along the way!

Chillin’ here, smoothie in hand, as the sun peeks over my left shoulder—what a vibe. Had a killer morning run, and guess what? Marcy was an absolute champ. We bumped into a couple of dogs, and she didn’t even think about chasing them. No leash needed. Marcy, you’re a star!

Kicked off the day a tad late, but not as sluggish as before. Managed to snag a solid 8 hours of Z’s last night, and I’m feeling a whole lot brighter because of it. Now that I’m getting back into the swing of things, fitness-wise, I’ve got this itch to start a blog. Track the usual suspects: morning pulse, weight, mood, and throw in some workout deets to tailor a training blueprint and monitor the gains. Just tossing the idea around.

But hey, can’t dilly-dally too long. Off to grind, and oh, it’s Panda House Day. Hello, deliciousness!

Snacks Anyone – 12:41am

Could not sleep so I got up to find a snack. Found none. I played a bowling game on this site. Some games are pretty fun. Well it is time to try to sleep again. I have not slept very well for a week and a half now. I wonder what the heck is going on????

Smoothie a Little Off – 5:23am

The morning smoothie is a little off but none the less good. Running was very very tough to get through. It seemed like midnight and I also could not ssleep all night. This changing of the seasons is really tough on me. The world still churns and I must get to work. Todays plans include movie night out with friends and a possible bike ride after work.

Todays mood ==> WEIRDED OUT

UPDATE: Tonights bike ride went absolutely awesome. I felt good throughout. It dosent seem as though I stayed awake all night. The trick now is to get some sleep. I dont think I will have a problem because of right now I am so content. Worked out hard for a couple of hours then ate Pasta and a beer. holy-hooooo oood Time!

2:03pm Hijacked my roommates frozen pizza : Feeling a little better once I have hijacked my roommates frozen pizza. I sat down and did some things to the site. I hope people don’t get offended that I have stats showing last visitors…..I like it. 2003-09-22 14:03:04 -0600

1:17pm Putting a lid on broadband use By John Borland CNET News.com September 22, 2003, 4:00 AM PT

Earlier this month, a Philadelphia Comcast broadband subscriber got a letter from his service provider, telling him he”d been using the Internet too much. Keith, who asked to keep his full name private, said he”d subscribed to the service for four years and never had a complaint before. Now he was being labeled a network “abuser.” Worse, he said, Comcast refused to tell him how much downloading was allowed under his contract. A customer service representative had told him there was no specific cap, he said, adding that he might avoid being suspended if he cut his bandwidth usage in half. But even then, the lack of a hard number gave Keith no guarantee.

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6:29am Tomorrow I Will Attack : I am already late for work. It seems the less I do on the weekends the more depressed I get. I have to really get out of town next weekend. Plus all this week I plan to make a comeback. Today I will be tired so I will attack modestly. Today’s main task is a bike ride this evening. The second main task is to be sleeping by 9PM. The third main task is to get some groceries. Tomorrow I will attack the laundry and house. Well that is my plan.

1:27am So I did it again : I have successfully stayed up the entire night working on this damn web site. Not a very good start to the new week. It is going to be an extra ordinary struggle to get caught up on my sleep, health, and work this week not to mention all the things that have to be done around the house. That’s it, time for bed … but it is so depressing to know that I only get to sleep 2 hours before I have to get up for work.

7:41pm Today was a beautiful day out : I must think that it should of been appreciated more than it was. I spent most of the day relaxing and organizing my music on my mp3 player.I went biking at West Rock Ridge and once again the trails were fantastic. What a day. I was supposed to go play tennis with friend Lilia, Monica, and Kostia but they all took a rain check. Sick and eating too much was the culprits. Oh well, next weekend I have things planned so I am sure the weather will not cooperate. Goodnight.

7:08pm Hmmmm, Another Type of Blogger : I just tried to implement another type of blogger. But you know what. I am really enjoying this forum to use as blogger. You can see my last posts on the main page and the search will search this forum while the other blogger it will not. Want to see an example. Go to Links.

Good morning to the world. Well I did not go running last night but I did make the Stress releiver Party. Today I have two options.

1) Do laundry clean house then go on a big bike ride or hike

2) Talk Monica into doing something together up in the New Britian area.

I have coffee with monica via cell phone at 10 Am and that is where the decision will be made. To be honest I would rather hang out with monica and even better if she wants to do a hike or something outdoors.

Just got off work and now I must go running before it gets dark. It seems that my putting games on this site has affected quite a few people. Some like it and some are just addicted to it.

Party tonight so I must get going. We are all meeting at Snookers in Ansonia at 7pm. Holy Shit I am late. Still must go running.

Ok woke up early this morning due to the high winds and rain outside. So I guess you can say that I have not slept last night once again. To make things worse, I havent gone running and now it is time for work. I hope after work to go running at Sleeping Giant. It is the biggest thing around here.

Time to hit the sack. Tonight was a blowout. I was so tired when I came home I sat in front of the computer and programmed. Well my site is really cool because of my efforts but on the bad side, I did not go biking. I hope that tomorrow will be good and I can prepare for the weekend what ever it may bring.

Tonights mountain bike was whooooaaaa, wa wa oucheeee! Wahooooooo! Yea, it was great. I feel like I have all the power to really tear things up and have fun. My climbing was effortless and my power on the tight single track was superb. It was a cool time on an awesome loop. At work I got involved more with the Commonality effort. It seems the Government may be interested in funding this project big time. I am scared. I did not think it would go big time. Well, it is off to bed.

Early To Bed + Late To Work = Depression. Tonight I am going to bed earlier than I have been. I must get back in a normal and healthy sleep pattern. Today I went to work at 9am which is totally not like me. I am used to getting into work between 6 and 7. Needless to say tonights mountain bike ride finished up in the dark. there is nothing more scary than coming down West Rock Ridge in the dark on a mountain bike. Last year this time I crashed out on the road and screwed myself up pretty bad. All I need this year is to fall off a cliff. Enough said, pretty thoughtless day. Goodnight.

This morning has started off badly. Our house has no power, only one outlet and I have all the extension cords going to it just to get stuff done. Yea, and get online to get my emails. How sick is that. The house is probably going to burn down and I am worried about my e-mail.

I haven't worked out for four days so this mornings run was surprisingly good. I hope to get some mountain biking in tonight.

Todays thoughts … hmmmmm. At first glance my week has started badly. Hard times though are a part of life, growth, and moving forward. What i decide to do with this morning is up to me. I have a couple of choices. I could use the energy, skills training, store the bitterness, and my favorite refuse to grow. lol. My life is fine without hard times or stress so I don't need to create any extra. But it is here so I guess my only choice is to move on and grow.

I just got an email from Charlie Mitchell. Oh how things have changed. Two children … wow. Charlie is still riding but he broke his hand 8 weeks ago. His newest edition Miles is now 8 weeks old and doing well according to Charles. He is doing a 12 hour race in Williston next week then it is off to the Vermont 50. I wish him luch. This weekend was so unproductive that this makes me feel old and out of shape. Anyway Charlie says that Chris Rose is now into hiking and whants to join the 46er club. Thats it … its off to the mountains for me next weekend. Take care all.

I just checked Mom and Dad’s website. Mom’s dealing with ear issues and vertigo, but hopefully, she’ll improve soon. I plan to call her today. Mom also posted a tribute to Johnny Cash and John Ritter from “Three’s Company,” mentioning their recent passings. She reflects on how they’ll be missed in acting and music, noting Cash’s last song about his late wife June Carter. Their love story is touching, as they passed away just months apart.

For more, visit their site: www.williammartin.com/blogs/thebuckeys.