Wow, how this year has started out. I have never gained so much as well as lost so much in such a short amount of time. I have learned that some feel that I chose myself over my friendships and moved down here to take a position at Sikorsky. The fact is though, it is a blessing because I have weeded out my real friends from the ones who are not. I just think it is time to do some praying and meditation. Sounds weird but I must sit here and feel and do what it is to be human. In the meantime I will be a sad puppy. Yesterday I just walked around town, avoiding the empty house and actually enjoyed it. It is funny that we can get so caught up in a routine and forget the other aspects of life. I start school tomorrow (RPI) and today I must get ready.