60 Zero

Suddenly the happiness is gone. Every day I look forward to "feeding" time. I think I am living from food to food. Recently I have taken it all away and have learned just how important it is to my happiness. Food should never be a form of happiness. Sure it can be delightful and fun but to live just to get to the next "feeding" is just not the way to live life. So take it away and cope. Find out what there is that can provide a healthy source of happiness. Fix what I am masking with caloric goodness.

I could be wrong but part of living is having a brain and the body to experiment on. This could all backfire and I find another form of addiction like gambling or heavy drugs. But I don't think so. Training and racing keep me pretty busy. Right now I am in between training blocks and in total rest mode. So perfect timing.

Last night around 8 I arrived at 24 zero. I had gone 24 hours without one calorie entering my system. But then I continued and now I am at 39 hours and counting. My goal is 60 hours. I have done 24 hours of binge before with great results in the form of body cleansing and natural repair. I have read studies where it is the over indulgence of food that is killing everyone. People that eat less live longer. Plus when you purge the system the body seems to go into a hibernation repair state. I can go out and hammer my ass off all weekend and after the proper recovery time where I eat to recover I binge. Within 24 hours it feels like I am completely repaired and ready to go. It has worked for me in the past.

But the new 60 hour scheme is for a deeper understanding of what and more importantly why eating is more important than anything in my life. Yea, maybe a little to see if I can do it. Also I have learned a lot about endurance. How to pace. How to focus when everything is fuzzy. Tomorrow I will come out the other side. I'll re introduce foods a little at a time to slowly come back to speed. Then I will begin with a new training block. And hopefully be faster then ever. Maybe I will stop dreaming of cardamom ice cream.