Thanksgiving

Up early this morning to check on my website. The site went down last night during Friends and Family Online. It seems to be back up and at this time my hands are tied on what to do. I cant move to another host as my website is 600 Megabytes and most website hosting companies charge a startup fee. Simply put, I can not afford it. I fear Friends and Family had its last meeting. It so happened that we all meet with the expectation that some one would be there to cheer us up. I had already bummed my mom out and didnt want to bum her out any more since she was feeling down prior to yesterday. Then when the site blew a gasket we all went to MSN messenger (I use Trillian). I joked that my sister did something but was just joking. She came unglued and freeked. Since I am alread on overload because of my possable homlessness and loss of mountain bike, I had no more mental capacity for this freek out. I could not stay with the meeting and left. I fear the family has reverted to old ways and will not speak for a couple months. It may be to late and my site will be gone ... it will be too bad. So I am up early, once again with a weird dream. I still havent got around to posting last nights dream since yesterday was a trying one. I have decided to focus on getting a job and let family problems go for now. I will let web site problems go for now ... in fact I may just find a free blog site and use that canceling this web site. It has been my programming practice and picture site since college and has reached the end of its usefullness. I will wait to get a job to make that decision as it is partly my resume. Well I think I will have some breakfast and search the job lisitings. I want to get up to snuff on XML and Style Sheets too as I have decided to really push for a job at Mars Stout which is paying $8.75 and hour, .75 cents more that my other four opportunities.